Cancer is a beast. It’s ugly, savage, and has no mercy. Cassie learned this all too well while watching her mother slowly deteriorate, one agonizing day at a time… With the desire to make her mother’s last year the best it can be, she works to be the perfect daughter. Every character trait, witty joke, like and dislike-Cassie molds herself to be what her mother would love most. But in the end, it still isn’t enough… After years of pretending, Cassie has no idea who she really is. When her mother slips away, Cassie falls into a deep depression, and thoughts of suicide become her most pressing threat. After a failed attempt, she seeks help, and is eventually able to return to life at home. Going through senior year as the girl whose mom died sucks… With her father picking up the pieces of his own heart, and Cassie back in school, she’s able to make a few new friends-one of them being Nathan Rivers. A little quiet, strong, and with inner demons of his own, Cassie can’t help but be intrigued. And as she grows closer to Nathan, the reasons for their mutual attraction slowly unveil. Pain sometimes feels impossible to cope with. It’s consuming, saturating, and all-encompassing. As Cassie and Nathan struggle to heal, can they learn to forgive and accept the past, and possibly find happiness in being Hopelessly Imperfect…?
I received this copy as an arc in exchanged for an honest review, so thank you Gabriela for sending me an arc, so sorry this was not up ready for the release date. Reading slumps are a bitch as well as life, but I finally did get to it this month and I was not disappointed. Gabriela is a wattpad writer who has become a published author this is her 2nd novel (her 1st with Limitless Publishing) I loved her stories on wattpad and her published novels have been no disappointment either! I love her writing and this story was beautiful. This was released on the 5th May and you can buy it now!
As always I never really read the descriptions when it’s an author I know and I know of her work, because it’s usually a given that I will like them. This is a contemporary teen fiction book and it follows the two characters Cassie and Nathan and their struggles with life and how both of their struggles bring them together.
Cassie’s character, I felt so sorry for her I don’t think I could ever imagine living without my mum and I could imagine how it felt if I did lose my mum and her hurt and pain it felt so real and it was expressed wonderfully in the story. We saw Cassie’s character grow throughout the story, after her suicide attempt she begins to grow and get used to dealing with life without her mother and learning to cope. Through the summer she went to a psychiatric hospital and when she comes back she has no friends except for one who kind of forces the be-friending on her. So her friend also brings Cassie out of her shell and sort of says it’s okay to live and be happy. We also see her opening up in therapy and that it really does help her deal with her mother’s death and her father’s new relationship.
Nathan’s character from what he tells us in the novel he has been around for a while yet Cassie has never noticed him, he is a bad boy for the school and the only time we really see this is when he is fighting. Nathan also goes therapy and we never really learn why he does like the full reasons, we know that his sister committed suicide and that’s part of the reason but we don’t really get told much else. It looks like he has a shit load of problems and he also slowly works through them with a therapist the same one Cassie goes to.
We discover that Nathan and Cassie have already met because at a party she was drunk and he took her home safely. I loved their relationship it was so cute, but it also didn’t feel like it was real, in the sense of it felt like teenage love and that it would pass in a few years (obviously proven wrong by the epilogue) but that is how it felt. It was the cutesy kind of relationship nevertheless it was still very cute and I did like them together.
We also get a secondary story line of Farrah and Chris together and we didn’t really see much of them as a couple but we did see Farrah a lot as she did force Cassie to be friends with her and refused to be pushed away by her. Cassie and Farrah’s friendship it brought Cassie out of her shell and helped her move on and try to be positive and not be drawn back and hiding herself.
The other aspect of the story was her old friends Anne, Marissa, and Tom. I felt like we could have had a lot more from Anne’s character, Gabriela brought her into the story but I felt she was a very 2D character the same with Marissa they were brought in but not really used and we didn’t really get much of what was going off with them.
Tom I felt like they could have had a brilliant storyline with that one, we could see throughout the novel Tom was antagonising her and wanting to date her, it got the feeling that there was going to be some violence and maybe something else between them. But I felt like it wasn’t explored properly like it could have been.
That being said I feel like that for a lot of this book that there was so much more that could have been explored and for whatever reason it wasn’t which really let the book down which is sad.