The first time I read this book I went down a deep hole and like 2 weeks later I’d read every book from Jamie Begley’s interconnected MC books. I went down a very deep hole. I loved that hole I must say. So because of that I have now had to reread them so I can write reviews for each of the books without getting the plots mixed up and thinking something happened in this book when in reality it was a different one. So I’m having to reread them all which I really don’t mind because I love this series. So it’s a mini heaven for me. I am going to try and make it spoiler free as possible and I will mark it spoiler when I get to that section.
So the MC club is different to anything I have ever read before, although they are your usual motorcycle club they also have sexual freedom within the MC and on Friday night party things can get a lot sexual and it’s basically one big sex party. Although it is all consensual and that is important to remember. The females aren’t doing anything they didn’t want and the same with the males. It took a little bit to get used to but once you was used to it.
Beth, my heart broke for her. She was trying to be so strong for Lily and all her clients and just rely on herself but it still didn’t hide the past she had including what her father the pastor of the church used to do to her. I really liked how that information was revealed to us in the story (more on this in spoiler section). Beth really was sassy at times when it came to arguing with Razor or some of the other members of the MC.
Razer I think the only way to describe him is he is a giant asshole. The way he talks to Beth and the way he talks about sex can be really crude. That being said he did have his nice I’m actually a nice human person. When he took her home, him and Shade took her to see Lily at college and when they were together he was really sweet with her.
I liked that Razer didn’t try to push and force Beth into sex and he was easy to take it her pace and kind of teach her especially as she was a virgin. He helped her deal with some of the guilt she felt about doing some sexual acts (more in spoiler section). But damn the sex was written good, I loved how detailed it was and damn it was hot and sexy. The dirty talk in this book was also on fire!
Lily is so sweet. I love her. Although Shade making eyes at Lily, I have to admit I love it. The tension.
Sam is such a shit stirrer. I really don’t like her. I also love the fact that all the girls don’t like her either.
The plot in this book was wild, so of course we had the main plot of Razor and Beth getting together and then we have the other plot which runs through the other books of the mystery surrounding Gavin’s death and in this book Viper finally gets some closure on his brother and oh my god it’s wild. Also the fact this continues throughout all the books still I love.
So first read through I found the writing to be really clunky at times and there was some mistakes and it couldn’t have been better but I enjoyed it nevertheless.
One of my favourite scenes in this book is when Beth tries to guess how the guys have their road names.
So if you continue from here onwards you will be spoiled. You don’t want to be spoiled. Unless you do then you know continue.
So Beth was basically abused by her father who was paster of the church, she would be made to repent her sins every week by being whipped in front of everyone for minor things. We aren’t really told about much of this until Pastor Dean (Lucky) gives Razor the tapes from the sermon speeches. When Razor begins to watch the tapes it is horrendous and then when the club one by one slowly starts joining him, we finally get told everything. That she would also be bitten by a poisonous snake that once the sheriff got involved and began to protect the girls he would make Beth walk on nails. And Beth would do it to protect Lily.
I love Cash. In my first read through I didn’t really pay much attention in the second read through I did. Especially as he tried to protect Beth when they tried to do a snake bite on her. Hearing from Cash how he felt watching that broke my heart. Like my baby Cash was hurting because of what Beth endured and he felt guilty for not stopping it and he’s so precious and needs protecting at all times.
Beth’s reaction over the parties was quite funny, at least on the second read through on the first it was quite surprising.
Pastor Dean (Lucky) is an absolute angel in this book the fact he steps away letting Razor have his chance with Beth after he screwed up once. And then when he screwed up again, he still helped him by giving him the tapes and telling him to pay attention to Beth a little more. Like he is an absolute babe and I love him. Another precious one that needs protecting at all times.
Evie breaks my heart there is a scene in this novel where Beth goes back to the clubhouse and sees Razor having sex with Evie and Train. The guilt that Evie felt over this and still Beth gave her a job, that much guilt that she began to go to church and she spoke to Pastor Dean about it. Like you can tell that she feels bad with it even when she doesn’t say it to anybody. You can also tell Razor feels guilty because since that night he hadn’t touched Evie or Sam and the guilt is a powerful emotion in this book.
So the sex in this book there’s not just your ordinary sex there is a lot of sharing, threesomes, exhibition and so on. As I said before it was all consensual. There is a certain scene for Evie’s birthday they are in a bar, whilst in the bar Knox begins to finger Evie. Knox asks Razor to distract Beth and he begins to slide his hand up her leg and she begins to get nervous he turns them around and Rider blocks other people’s view whilst watching them. And then it escalates and he begins to finger her as they getting hot and heavy she begins to give Rider a hand job at the same time. After the sexual act is finished Beth begins to feel ashamed about her part in it. I love the fact that Razor, Knox, Rider and Evie tell her that’s it’s okay and there is nothing to be ashamed about. I love that they just make her feel okay about it.
When Natasha gets her tattoo and becomes a fully fledged member. Beth kicking off about it is hilarious. When she finds out it wasn’t Razor who gave Natasha the last vote it’s even more funny. I just love her reaction.
I love that Razor got Beth’s name tattooed on his dick especially after saying no girl holds his dick. I must admit it was hella romantic for them anyway.
So as I said at the start of this book I said this was the second time I’ve read it and I have to admit it’s freaky as hell once you know that Lucky is actually Pastor Dean. I really don’t know how I didn’t at least think something was happening because there was so many hints throughout this book of his identity. The same goes with Viper being Loker with having read it once and rereading it so weird!
Shade and Lily warm my heart. I love my babies.
Again Cash needs protecting at all costs. Love my baby. So precious. Protect at all cost.